Call me Calamity Jane

I am so discouraged. It feels like my prayers have been hitting the ceiling, bouncing off and not getting to God for a whole year now. I thought He was leading me to retire from my job and move back here, and that all worked out beautifully, but almost nothing has worked as I planned since then. I heard an interview with Art Linkletter on the radio the other day and he said, "If you want to make God laugh, just tell Him your plans." I must be a continual source of amusement for God.
I knew the finances were going to be a little tight until I either get my newest truck paid off or sold. I tried selling it and that didn't work. Nobody wants to buy used vehicles anymore, or if they do, they want a bargain basement price. I tried selling some horses and that didn't work, either. I even tried to give one away and she came up lame, so no one wanted her. I just took one to a sale, but had to pass him out and bring him home. I thought God had given me a good position in the sale line-up, but it turned out to be a bad one. My horse was number nine, but several ahead of him just didn't show up, so everyone was reluctant to bid, because the market was not yet established. Several lesser quality horses sold later in the sale for more money than my bid. With all commodities for living and ranching going sky high, I am considering looking for another job.
Disaster struck again when one of my best mares died trying to foal. It was her first attempt, but she was nearly five years old, so she should have been able to foal on her own. The foal looked completely healthy, but had a front foot folded back. She was the last mare to breed, so I wasn't expecting her to be the first to foal and I wasn't paying as close attention as I could have been. I have three more pregnant mares and I have been arising out of bed two or three times each night to check for trouble. They have all foaled before, so hopefully, there won't be any further problems. Does lightening ever strike twice in the same place? I hope not. I've had enough setbacks.